star chaser

the business of chasing a celebrity is really a roller-coaster journey. it has its ups and downs. when u see her and she acknowledges you, you feel on cloud nine. when u miss her and the others got the opportunity you missed, you are down in the rut. i am feeling in the rut at the moment.
damn it! all sorts of obscenities are coming up at the moment and the more i look at those postings and photos, the more wrecked i feel.

but it is all in the folder of a 'chaser' i guess. you have your hits and you have your misses as well.
the celebrity does not ask to be followed and no one asks you to do the job of a paparazzi. you ask for it yourself. you willingly sacrifice your sleep and your money and your time hoping to get some 'personal' time with the idol. there is a lot of competition involved i tell you. but i have met some nice people in this track. when you have people to wallow in sorrow together, it makes the pain more bearable. these people ... not some immature young headless fans mind you; they are all professionals in their own fields and they do have proper jobs and courses they take in the real world. i am so proud of meeting them. it is a common love that brings us together and i am glad that we manage to stay on the same level with no rivalry among us. these are the people you can share one table with and have coffee together while chatting, sharing experiences and laughing your heart out. not some you meet at the events and only say 'hi' and then 'bye'.

and what about family and friends' support? well, all sibling are fine with my craze. aunt, cousins and dad too! dad could even talk to me about the amount of money i spent last weekend while we were having lunch at ming ren...and he did not balk while calculating. how cool was that! remember he even asked if i wanted help in getting tickets for the show?? mom on the other hand...freaked out (!!!) when she knew i was going for both nights. she called me crazy. sob! but of course she also constantly called me to check where i was that weekend.
and friends? they knew about it and i guess they are fine with it. right? some colleagues knew...and of course i have to let my housemate know. i dun want to be AWOL from my own rented dwelling.

this is a part of my life you seldom will get to read about. so there you have it. and i hope my sorrow is all out with these words.