to rice or not to rice?

it had been a very tiring week with all books coming in and so many side activities to take care of. i really feel the strain everyday at the end of the day. sometimes, before it hits evening, the brain seems to have lost so many cells that it wants to shut down.
and all the burden is not only in the workload.
the diet too has gone on the heavier side.

nowadays, lunch is at the canteen-rice accompanied by 3 dishes.
and at night, i was force-fed with more rice. as shown in the evidence below.
it was brought to my house and i was warned to finish every grain. well, to show my gratitude and appreciation, of course i finished everything.
now i am feeling all the guilt and remorse of eating so much rice!!! i don't want to eat rice!!! i can feel the tummy and hip area getting fleshier. oh no!

personally, i dun think i can get a lot of nutrients from eating rice. try googling the benefits of eating rice and i tell you, you don't really find a lot of useful information.
in one of the articles i find, it says that rice is a good course of complex carbohydrate and a good source of protein alternative for meat in a vegetarian diet.
ok....i don't need more carbohydate in my life and i am not on a vegetarian diet.
more information- rice helps in the proliferation of healthy bacteria thus helping in good bowel movement. but we are already eating fruits and vegetables right? so we do get our fibres for the bowel movement.
so my point is (personal view)- i don't see any benefit in eating rice.
i am going to insist on taking less rice starting from tomorrow. even mom and grandma at home do not talk about my habit of not eating rice with the cooked dishes.

the canteen operator usually gives me more rice than i can finish. what a waste. i have told her countless times to reduce the amount.
am considering bringing my tiffin carrier to the canteen so i can just order take-away....and then divide that 1 meal into 2 meals- lunch and dinner so i can reduce the amount of food intake. i think it is not a bad idea.

my discipline to jog need to come back as well!!! the target is to lose 2 kilos!!! and these are the 2 kilos i have put on mind you. damn!

some news from home.
grandma has been walking with the aid of a walking stick orginally bought for grandpa since the chinese new year.
when i see her this weekend, she is much better and more energetic. her speech is loud and clear and not slurry. so thank god.

the weather has been hot too so does that contribute to their health? they were always complaining of cold when the rain come, so the hot weather is normal weather to their bodies i guess.

but to us, gosh, it is so hot even at night. can't sleep without the aircond on but the damn aircond at home here is so noisy. i wonder why my aunt did not complain about it. anyway, hope mom will call someone to check it.