Sunday, October 02, 2011

everything instant

we live in an 'instant' world nowadays. everything has to be instant.

instant noodles. instant start-up. instant answer. instant recall. instant mark. instant result. instant coffee. instant gratification... and the list goes on.

hence, it is not a surprise when anger management is badly handled. we expect things to go our way and when it does not, we just explode.

take the stupid computer for example. we have come to rely so much on that device that life seems so empty without it. on one hand, it is a path to a whole new endless world but on the other hand, it is a dead end as well, the end of your social life.

i got so pissed with the home pc this morning that i felt like formatting it straight away so it won't have that speed of a snail. the problem is, i dunno how and there is that cd which i cannot find. i think it is time i change to windows 7. my brother would say, 'i told you so.' now where the heck did i put that disc? aarrghhh!!!!

i know i know. i should not be made to lose my temper because of the stupid pc...but i just can't help it. how i wish it has never been invented- with all the entertainments channels available, i have come to rely so so much on it and not to mentioned addicted to it that i can lose my head if things go wrong.

i hardly watch any tv nowadays because i can get them all online. games?? besides physical activity, i also have that addiction to facebook games. haiz.....

this invention called computer is really a double-edge sword.

so if you have a kid, do do do steer him or her away from the computer. i am sure there will be less out burst and confrontations.

the restlessness this morning affected me for half a day. i can't even digest the news i read in the paper today. the heart and head kept on throbbing and i was on the brink of losing my sanity! wakakaka.....

i was not the only one losing her marbles this morning. my grandmother too was babbling nonsense that it really got on my nerves. i could only sit down and absorb all her bashings on dad. how i felt like screaming at that time.

it made me think how different the culture in the west is compared to the filial piety concept in the east. in the west, an adult is expected to move out of their parent's house and start living on their own or they will be ridiculed for being tied to the mother's apron string. and in the west, parents can't wait for their children to leave their nest. i apologise if i get this wrong.
and in the east, well, in my case, i still have 3 generations staying in one house and i have a grandmother who goes cranky when she does not see my father in the morning. then she starts saying how irresponsible he is. it happens once in a while when she has nothing to do and thinks too much. i felt so much negative vibes in the house today.

urrghh...what a morning i had.

luckily the group of kids who came brought back some sanity into me and i escaped for a while from the pressure balloon. i had to do my job no matter how i was feeling then.


we even celebrated a birthday and had new york cheese cake from secret recipe and some junk food. the cake was really really filling.

today, i can't wait to get out of my house. let me just finish packing and i will be on my way.

6 comments:

linsiew said...

What happened with grandma? She's getting cranky nowadays?

escape2 said...

oh yes. when she is more energetic and has nothing to do, she does get cranky and imagines things which never happened in the past and starts blaming someone. she even said that she would not live to see next year. she said, she knows this kind of thing. haiz.....i also dunno how to respond.
why can't i have a grandma who is positive and appreaciates each extra day she is going to spend on this world??? i am going to bring a big bottle of positivity with me to old age.

Kok Wai Mooi said...

Escape 2 b patient n keep ur cool. Sometimes old people relapse into second childhood n hungers for attention. When they don't get it they start to imagine things. Actually she should appreciate every minute of her life being able to have three generations under one roof!

c2minnie said...

dear, u're lucky that ur granma is just starting to behave like this as my granpa have been like this for > 5 years, we just hv to layan it everyday & try to not go into the -ve thoughts, steer him towards to the +ve thoughts ie he's going to attend who's marriage, who's graduation, who's giving birth, etc, layan them more like kids, talk silly jokes with them, etc....

my granpa just love to pick a quarrel with my dad+his siblings, but would just love to talk to his grandchildren, so we just layan only lor ~.~

yes what they need now is just more attention..

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escape2 said...

chinching, my granma, she does not want to get out of the house. she thinks that she is not fit to go out now that she is so slow in her walking and she walks with the help of the walking stick. if i were to tell someone is graduating next year, her reply might be she will not live to see that.

she just slapped my granpa just now and accused him of doing things which he did not do. luckily we were around.

is it nasty of me to wish that i sometimes wish her wish is fulfilled?? ;(