i have become numb to losing. i am so used to losing that i think i am slowly succumbing to it. i don't have that winning spirit or the victorious feeling in me. come to think of it, what does it feel to be winning? i dunno and i can't feel it anymore.
what do i lose? not really me, but the things we do. there is no real sense of achievement in it when you don't get the medal or position, is there?
this state is totally unwelcomed. a person needs to have that motivation, to have that sense of achievement to look forward to the next day. when losing has become so common, it is already accepted as a part of life. slowly, you turn into a loser without realising it. how sad. it is a fact, isn't it? that is how a person slowly diminishes.
and i don't want to be that person. but i need to climb out from this rut. i guess no one can help me here except myself. shit, it is just so hard to get motivated when u are in this job.
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