my heart bleeds just like how your paw is bleeding

oh, how it pains our hearts to see him like this. we are all so worried about him and like everyone else, we do want him to get better.

i waited one whole day for a veterinarian recommended by a pharmacist to come, but cis! that vet did not even call to say that he could not make it because his car broke down. he said he was coming after lunch and i waited till 5p.m. to call him because i did not want to seem pushy. he can't come tomorrow but maybe he can come on sunday.....sunday!!! no, we can't wait!

just because beanie is not any special breed, it does not make him less special to us.

you can barely hear him bark these few days and even if he does, the bark has lost its ferocity. it seems hoarse and suppressed ;(
paws are bleeding, mouth and eye are bruised, ear is infected. can it get any worse?


how much can he lick? we try to spray anti-disinfectant and it is quite a task to spray it too. the paw is possible after much hide-and-seek but the ear??? he wants to bite every time you lift the flap. you can see the hair outside the right ear slightly wet right? it is because of the infection sob sob sob
this is what he does a lot. he also sometimes rub his eye and snout on the floor to ease the itchiness but not knowing that it actually worsens them.

so the plan for tomorrow?....please...hope this work. feed him sleeping pill, then tell the vet helper who stays near my house to come and inject him and hopefully clean his infected areas.
if he is around tomorrow....

i have been to this vet helper a few times with my questions but why do i sense that only i want an urgent solution? he says that he can't do much with his supply here and tells me to bring him to a proper vet clinic in rawang. imagine driving my dog there! impossible!

am i over-reacting?
the anxiety will not end till he gets well.