fear....then relief

5 cent 5 cent 5 cent 5 cent 5 cent 5 cent

that is how much they are going to raise the price of petrol per litre tomorrow. so i will need to pay rm1.85/l for ron95. no more subsidy for ron97.
price of sugar will be increased as well by 25 cent per kilo to rm1.75/kg. well, i still think that is cheap for sugar...something which you do not really need in your diet.

a colleague called me earlier to ask me if i knew about this and told me to go and fill up my petrol tank. well, i refused to go and join the queue. i would only be able to save a little bit once, why bother with the hassle. i can still afford that extra 5 cent per litre lah.

and another reason i did not want to get out of the house was because i had only discovered from one big anxiety that almost made me cry!!!! i could really feel all colours draining from my face for those 2 hours.

it began when i was searching for those photos i used two weeks to capture at work. photos of all uniform units, clubs and societies and sports teams. i failed to detect them on the hard disc. i know i had grouped them all in one folder and had divided them into their units including morning and afternoon session. i searched and searched and reconnected the hard disc again and again.....yet i could not find the folder!! then i looked at my desktop, also could not find.

stopped looking when i had to go for dinner to celebrate my housemate's birthday. i really had no mood already then. what would i do if all the files were missing because of some virus attack?? i had black pepper chicken chop and i ordered a tiramisu cake for her from tg malim. i was eating like a zombie and i was the fastest to finish my food because my actions were just like a robot's. i could not feel the food going down my stomach too. all that i was thinking was the folder. oh folder!!!!

we spent almost two hours at the restaurant and when i got back, i reattached the hard disc to the computer again to start my search. then out of nowhere, my eyes landed on co-cu units folder on the desktop. i did not remember seeing it there earlier! i was expecting the worst (empty folder) when i clicked the folder. but luckily (a big heave of relief), it was the folder i had been locating. AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! i was soo soo soo soo relieved!

quickly i made a backup file and i could feel the colours slowly coming back to me.

gosh, i think i am really stressed from work. but there are still sooo many things to do. i guess i have to take it one step at a time and try to delegate my work now. but ah, i usually feel better if i do the stuff because i will know where everything is at. dilemma.

got to start organising some photos now before they go missing again. night.