Sunday, January 03, 2010

not feeling good about the new beginning

work is going to start officially tomorrow but now i am already feeling uneasy. i dunno whether it is the sudden humidity in the air or the lethargy in my body, but i dun feel like going back to bidor later. i feel shitty.
i have started packing some of my things into the bags to be put in the car later. the thought of cleaning the house, sweeping, wiping and mopping is really putting me off.

yesterday went down to kl with uncle, aunt and atticus, but we went our separate ways. i dropped them at one-u where they met our cousin while i headed to subang to meet pkien.

we went to sunway pyramid before going to dinner at taipan. the diner was called happy days....the interior was all made ala happy days sitcom. food here was expensive and the service was quite slow. the waiters waitresses were mostly all foreigners and it was hard to understand their english.

kien and i shared a choc fudge milkshake and fried calamari rings. i had grilled salmon while she had lamb shanks.

atticus and gang had their dinner in taman tun at uncle's house. i only went to pick them up after 10p.m. opps...kinda late already.

this morning, aunt ginny told me that i must have felt twitchy in my nose the whole night as i was part of their conversation the previous night. and what was the topic?? wanna guess??

well, it was none other than getting me a 'partner'. sigh. actually i got this other talk from another aunt saying that finding a man should be a new year's resolution. why?? frankly, it is not my priority at all. i dunno why but i felt like crying when i heard that over the phone. do i look so pitiful to them?? why does everyone think that having a man will make life easier or more wonderful? i still think that this kind of thing cannot be forced. the more desperate you are to get yourself attached, the more chances of failure you will find yourself in. i know that is what will happen to me. someone up there just doesn't like me heading head first into this territory. i will not pressure myself and i hope i won't get pressure from others. just let me live my life.

6 comments:

ws123 said...

d elder 1 oways talked like tat punya.dun care bout it.
tis is ur life..u feel happy enough la^0^

qahina said...

take it easy - you can always tell them I'm single by choice! But of coz being old-skool abt the institution they won't give up on you so you just "masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri la" Anyway you're having lots of fun on your own. Being a married woman myself I would always tell anyone single that nothing is greener on the other fence. People always perceived added value of being married but you only get that if you marry the right person. SO dont rush under pressure babe. :)

Happy New Year - and go get a massage! LOL

c2minnie said...

me 2 juz realise how tough this year is gonna be for me career-wise, really will be a miracle if i get thro 2010 in 1 pc ;-) so it looks like 2010 is gonna be a FOCUS ON WORK year with NO LIFE!

btw the Happy Days diner sucks BIG TIME! was thr & felt it's such a waste of my $$$$, food is not worth the price coz food is like mamak-stall western food standard but price is so expensive, money more well-spent in TGIF or Chilli's

Betty said...

just enjoy your life lorr...no need to worry.

ash said...

Don't hear what you don't want to hear, don't see what you don't want to see. You're perfectly fine, a beautiful, strong woman. Happy new year and have a great year ahead.

escape2 said...

it is so good to have girlfriends.
well, let us all keep our fingers crossed that things will be good. i hope things will be good for you all too.