home = food

do you eat when you are hungry or do you eat because you just can't resist the food you see in front of you???

the latter is the case with me when i am back home. there is just an abundance of food on the table and in the fridge, and sometimes in the freezer that i just can't stop myself from stuffing them in my mouth. i know i am not hungry, but they are food. and food is meant to be put in the mouth and consumed. lame??

i love all kinds of jelly and what more if they are healthy for you as well. guai lin go, yummy. to cleanse the dirty blood inside your body and to make you have smooth skin, so says my aunt. but i dun really take in to this kind of reasoning. they can cleanse or reduce the heat in the body. yes. but getting rid of the pimples on the skin. no.

call me stubborn but i believe that good skin is like almost more than 90% gene. my skin condition has never been good since i was a child. since young, i have always had 'breakouts' on the legs and they were really unsightly that they left patches of scabs that my uncle made fun of them. he said, if anyone was looking for extra coins, they would be able to find them on my legs. ouch.

and now, the patches have left the legs but i do still have pimple outbreaks on the face. i blame it on oily skin where sebum builds up fast and clog the pores. and also sensitivity. my fingers go and pick on the raised bumps and in the process leave red spots which take forever to go away. haiz....so blame myself. so reminder- do not pick on your pimple!!!

today is the 14th of july in the chinese calendar and it is the day the gate of hell opens the widest. but one should not only equate hungry ghost festival to ghost sightings in the month of july in chinese calendar, you can't forget your deceased ancestors too.
so here are the dishes we have prepared for prayer at home to the deceased ancestors. now you know why i am filling my stomach with so much food right?

we have yet to go and pray at the public altar in front of the papier mache of the 'hades' (god of hell) in town. it will be done next week. gosh, another full meal next week. so i better eat moderately in the weekdays and leave all the eating for the weekend.

ok now to update on grandma.....no good news. it is more to her degeneration. she was holding the joss sticks to offer prayer to the ancestors when she asked, 'what festival are we celebrating? i have forgotten.' gulp. yup, that was what she asked. she hardly watches tv nowadays. she used to spend her afternoon catching up with hokkien series, but nowadays she just sits in the arm chair staring blankly at nothing in front of her. that only contributes to more dead brain cells right? i wonder if buying colouring book for her will activate some motorskills and also some brain activities. i also wonder if she will think it is offensive. you know how some elderly can get very sensitive.

last food photo for today- ta da, the inside of passion fruit which i got few days ago. the outside has turned slightly dehydrated, but that is how we want it. the more dehydrated the skin outside is, the riper the fruit is.
i bought myself a cup of ice-cream to go with it. i was anticipating it to be very sour hahaha....but it turned out way sweeter than i thought. i could have done without the icecream. yummy. i don't mind eating this fruit everyday. am going to ask my colleague at school to get for me when she goes to the market.